It's just not worth your really isn't

Submitted by Kathy-ann Daniel on 15 August 2010 - 1:45pm

It's just not worth your really isn't.


It is with a really sad heart that I blog here today. It appears that after receiving her CXC CAPE results last Thursday, (12th August, 2010) Kalyzan Beharry of Gulf View, Trinidad, killed herself.

It seems she was not happy with her CXC CAPE results and decided that suicide was her only choice. She was 18 years old.

My heart hurts for her and the hopelessness and despair she must have felt to make this choice. My heart hurts for her mom. Kalyzan was said to be her mother's only child, so I can only imagine the grief that she is feeling now.

I have said repeatedly here in Caribexams and I will continue to say it: These exams, while important, do not decide your life. They do not decide what you will accomplish in your life or who or what you will become.

You. do. that.

Every year I read about the fear and anxiety that CXC exam candidates go through and I try to remind all, every year, that life goes on. There is life after CXC. And yes, there is life, even if you get poor grades or fail all your exams outright.

For all those CXC exam candidates who doubt that they can recover from poor exam results, or who feel that it is the end of the road if they fail an exam, or two, or even three, we post this:

You can if you think you can

If you think you are beaten, you are,
If you think you cannot, you don't.
If you like to win, but you think you can't,
It is almost certain you won't.

If you think you'll lose, you're lost,
For out in the world we find,
Success begins with a person's will.
It's all in the state of mind.

If you think you are outclassed, you are,
You've got to think high to rise,
You've got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize.

Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster man.
But soon or late the man who wins,
Is the man who thinks he can.

~ C. W. Longenecker ~


guest (not verified) 15 August 2010 - 9:21pm

I am really sorry to hear that that girl killed herself. No joke, CXC exam does real take it out of you, but to kill yourself man.....

For me, I am still waiting for results but I can't see myself feeling so bad about it that I lick up mehself.

You haffa live another day to fight another day.

guest (not verified) 16 August 2010 - 1:08am

I am not sure if this is true but i know somebody who knows Kalyzan Beharry and she told me that Kalyzan got 3 ones(1) and a two(2). So the grades may not be the real reason.

guest (not verified) 17 August 2010 - 9:55am

A pleasant good morning all. Can someone please guide me on how to access my cxc examination results online. thanks alot.

boyfool101 (not verified) 17 August 2010 - 11:57am

I read this. It makes me thinking that I feel like hard. I really hate a struggling difficulty. Perhaps, I will give up.

2learn (not verified) 17 August 2010 - 3:48pm

In reply to by boyfool101 (not verified)

Life is a challenge for everyone; a constant battle to be alive.
In life some makes it quicker than others, but when you think about it, everyone has issues. Whether it is at learning, relationship, finding a job and many other factors. I have had personal experiences and I'm telling you to be strong and continue to fight, because once you have stopped, you will be left behind thinking if your life is worth continuing. There is never that feelings that warms your heart to know that your hard work has paid off.

I have had many challenges,
i have been stoned depressed and sourly exhausted to ACHIEVE from once failures, but to end my life when you have a chance to work harder and improve it, doesn't make any sense. The moment you give upon life is the moment when you start digging your grave. And when you are now dead, "did you accomplish anything?" NO!.

Don't let go because determination is the key to accomplishments, no matter how long it takes,
no matter how much suffering you have to bear, at the END of it all, you will smile and say 'I have told you so."

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